for al those ppl tt kares bout mi.. last wk is okok.. nth much.. de onli daes when i am happy is thur.. as for de teacher's dae.. for al those that do not noe.. my class is de one wearin boxes.. our theme is boxman.. and is real cool u noe.. wearin boxes as a head gear and went ard de sch.. real fun.. is been such a long time since i had such a great dae.. took alot of pics.. w meixuan.. w my class and stuffs.. and jz james fuad dixie sheng yuan germaine and firadus performed.. is nt bad i tink.. i lyk de drummer james! he is gd man! haha.. so aft de celebration i went to play dota w my clicks again.. usual activities.. play 4 matches.. frm 3+ til 7+.. fun i tink.. den went to eat and talk some cock there.. and yes! JOAKIM IS OUT!! finali singaporeans finali noe hu can sing and hu cant..
sat went to jz church.. kos he sae is a special event? jo is drummer and he preach.. so decided to giv dem my support and go c dem.. woo jo is quite a gd drummer.. for a first time he's pretty gd.. jz.. his msg was pretty simple bud it does hav some substance.. well done guys! =) den aft tt went fellowship w dem lo.. nth much la..
currently my mood nw is bad.. and i dunno why.. i may appear ok.. bud deep down i m nt.. for those tt reali noe mi.. i guess u al tinks tt nw i m more quiet den eva b4.. i dun reali talk nw compare to last times.. yes i may b a introvet.. bud i stil wil talk last time.. bud nw.. seems to mi tt i dunno wad to talk.. i m jus complete silence.. even w my best fren.. i stil did nt talk? why?
did i reali change? change to sum1 hu even myself do not noe? more hot temper.. temperamental..
i reali dunno why.. why i m feelin down.. i do not noe.. al i can feel is tt deep inside my soul.. i feel emptyy.. emptiness.. nth bud empty.. sadness filled three-quarter of my life.. i suppose.. there is a bottomless vessl tt is filled w sadness.. why cant i jus hav a more understandin mum? why cant i jus hav a more peaceful home? why cant i b more outgoin? why cant i jus wake myself up and studi? where is de smile i usual hav? is no longer =).. bud is =l.. even i smile.. is jus.. a fake smile.. de distance between mi and God is gettin larger.. and larger.. wher is de once mi? wher? i dunno.. i dunno! and i dun fuckin kare! i hate my fuckin life.. everiting is jus de same.. i m jus goin thru a routine.. nth much! everiting is jus a routine.. al i dun fuckin kare! everiting is jus nt smooth for mi.. when i needed sum1.. whers de sum1? theres so much ting inside of mi i wan to tel sum1.. bud wherss de sum1? no idea.. bud i noe.. i dun nid ani1.. i jus b alone and tt fine w mi.. so.. dun ask mi i m ok anot.. kos i m nt.. dun ask mi how r u.. kos i dun wan to sae.. i juus wanna lock everiting up.. i wanna lock up.. i dun wan ppl to noe aniting.. i dun wan ppl to get into my life or hurt mi.. tts de best way.. unless.. sum1 can assure mi tt i wun get hurt.. sum1 can unlock de doors tt is so shut.. sum1 assure mi tt wil by my side..
be with you forever